Will the last sign of the Zodiac give us the closure we need for 2019? For many of us, it feels like 2020 hasn’t fully began. The Hanged Man energy of “hurry up and wait” has followed us into the first few months of the year. A poorly placed snow day or the flu has kept us in pause when we’ve wanted to create. Pisces New Moon is here to bring us fully into the Emperor, but first it’s going to really flip us on our heads. We must sink even further into our subconscious than we have dared to go. Grappling with the age old question of “what am I even doing here?!”. Pisces is known as the Dreamer of the Zodiac, it connects us with the deepest, most profound, most fundamental dreams of our soul. There is no dream too big for Pisces. When your ego says “how could we even do that?” Pisces say “how can we NOT do that?”
With this deep soul searching and awakening of the dreams of the past, we will inevitably come up against the fear and shame that keeps us from pursing these dreams. When you think about your childhood dream of becoming a chef you might remember all the reasons it was an impractical dream. Here is the deal though. We did not come here to play small. We did not come here to pay bills and hate our jobs. We came here to be the embodied expression of our soul’s truth. We cannot do this by playing it safe, believe me I have tried. While this new moon is creating a beautiful portal for realizing our dreams, I encourage you to journey deep with it. Journal about everything you have ever wanted to do, everywhere you have wanted to live, and everyone you want to surround yourself with. Let your soul be heard!
When your fear voice comes up, which it inevitably will, notice what it is trying to communicate. Is this really the truth? Follow the thread, when did this start? Did you take on someone else's belief system? Are you bringing an experience from the past into the present moment? Is there someone you need to forgive? Is it yourself? What chains keep you locked in place? Be inquisitive. I suggest journaling, meditating, getting out in nature (particularly near water) to help sink into this invitation of expansion.
It is so much easier to shut out fear than to dive into it’s depths. Sometimes it feels like our pain has no bottom, I promise you it does. I have been there. I have fallen down that well and it was when I finally hit the ground that I put down the roots of the life I am living now. The authentic, sometimes messy, always beautiful, life I get to call my own. All I can say, is do the work. Follow the thread, even if it unravels the whole entire sweater, keep pulling. It is always worth it in the end.
When it feels like too much, reach out for help. While some of this work is ours to do alone, there is such beautiful gifts in support. This Sunday, March 1st, is the next Moon Circle at Shilo Farm (note a time change 6-8pm). Even when we feel like we have nothing to give, there is something so beautiful and often indescribable that happens when we come together in circle. We are all stronger together than we are alone. And if you are looking for one on one support, please reach out to me for details on my individual offerings.
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My hope is through my words, through my own experiences, you will relate to some piece of my story. Some desire that I've shared or insecurity I've admitted to will also belong to you. My words are my truth, but they may also be yours.