Passion, Lust, Shame, Fear, Power
Typically, New Moons are a time of quiet contemplation and intention settings. As the first sliver of light after a dark moon, they mark the time of new beginnings and cycles. However, today’s New Moon in Scorpio has a spicier flavor. We are being deeply invited into our shadows, our dark side, the parts of ourselves that we tend to stuff away from the light. Rather than wallow in the depths of these shadows, we are being invited to shake up our feeling about them, moving from resisting to embracing.
Have you ever shared something you’re embarrassed about with a friend only to find that they have done/thought the same thing? Think, eating cake out of the garbage, watching porn, fantasizing about running away from your “perfect life”, on and on and on. Once you get it out in the open, suddenly any feelings of shame you had, dissolve, maybe you can even laugh about it. The darkness is what gives a shadow it’s power. The coat rack in the corner of the room can look like a monster to a child in the dark, but once the light is on, the fear is removed. This is the power of shadow work.
It has been through the acknowledgement of my darkest shadows that I have found the most light in my life. I’m not saying that shadow work is always as easy as flipping a light on. Sometimes it’s deep and gut wrenching and shakes us to our very core, but it is always worth it in the end. Our brain wants us to stay small and play it safe. It resists the work of the shadows hard. Our soul though, wants us to grow and flourish, to fight our demons and come out victorious.
Today you have a choice, to keep resisting that which scares you or to face it head on. I used to suffer from anxiety pretty regularly, especially after my divorce. I remember calling my Clairvoyance teacher and friend (shout out Elizabeth Guilbeault) during one of these bouts of anxiety. I was resisting it hard and feeling so much judgment about my anxiety. She said to me “What if you let yourself really feel it this time? Sink all the way down into those feelings? What if this is the last time to have to feel like this?” It felt so scary, and bottomless. But I did it, I leaned in and really fell apart and found there was a bottom and it wasn’t nearly as far down as my fear led me believe it was.
I share this example because I remember thinking I might die if I really felt it. My fear was so huge at the time. At the bottom of that anxiety was the fear that I wasn’t worthy of being loved in a way that felt safe to me. This was my shadow. Saying it now, it’s hard to imagine how this belief had such a hold on me, but it did. Mainly because I didn’t even know what it was at the time. I couldn’t see the cause, I could only feel the symptom.
That’s what happens with shadows, we feel the symptoms if we aren’t willing to look for the cause. We feel exhausted all the time, anxious, easily triggered, have explosive anger, or feel like crying, but we don’t know why. The shadow is the path to healing. It’s being willing to take the dark trail through the woods knowing it’s going to take you where you need to go.
So how can you embrace your shadow work today, for this New Moon in Scorpio?
You can write about it. Shadow work is usually pretty messy, so you might want to write on loose paper rather than a journal you keep and look back on. Some people even like to burn their shadow journaling after, as a cathartic release. Use the following questions and prompts to get you started and be willing to let anything and everything come through:
If you want a guide for exploring your shadows, it would be my absolute pleasure to be of service. Through coaching and tarot reading, it is my passion to help individuals work through the blocks that are keeping them from their authentic existence. This coming Sunday, November 3rd I will be hosting the Monthly Moon Circle at Shilo Farm. We will honor the changing cycles of the moon and the cycles within ourselves. During our time together we will deepen our inner wisdom through connection, discussion, journaling, movement, meditation, and sprinkling of magic. Click here for more details or to register.
The Hunter Moon
Full Moon in Aries
If you have felt a little turned inside out this week, you are not alone. Leading up to the Full Moon in Aries, also known as the Hunter Moon, the deepest corners of our subconscious have brought into sharp focus. We are being asked to take an honest inventory of all the areas of our lives that matter. Relationships, work, physical health, all of it. Aries energy is not afraid to fight for what is important, whether that means elevating priorities or discarding what isn’t working. The bricks you laid six months ago are either coming to fruition or being discarded. If you journal or set written intentions regularly, you might gain insight by reviewing what you were prioritizing in May of 2019.
I’ve pulled three Tarot cards to better understand the medicine and invitation of this particular moon cycle.
What are we being invited to pay attention to? Three of Cups Reversed
This card highlights our relationships in the present moment. A moment of friendship, celebration, and connection that only exists in this way at this point in time. When pulled in reverse, it suggests we are missing out on the invitation for meaningful connection by worrying about the past or the future. This Moon asks us to pay attention, to be available for fun and pleasure. Crushing goals is amazing, but a life without connection loses a lot of meaning. If you have an invitation for fun with people you care about today, please take it!
Who is our teach this moon? The Emperor
Shine baby shine! With the Emperor as our teacher we are being invited to step fully into our power. Where in your life can you be more authentically yourself? Sometimes we shrink so that we don't outshine others, sometimes we contort ourselves to fit the mold of whatever image of success or happiness we see. The Emperor asks us to stand fully in the magic of who we are. It is by shining bright that we encourage others to shine and it is by standing in our unique magic that we fully live up to our soul's purpose.
How can we invite in gentleness this moon? The Empress Reversed
Where in your life can you allow yourself to receive more freely? Many of us are good at giving away our energy, time, and resources to those we care about, and yet struggle when it is our turn to receive. The Empress wants us to know that it is our birth right to receive. Every breath we take is a gift from this earth, one that we cannot live without. Our ability to receive both universal blessings and earthing comforts is our right. To call in gentleness this moon is to look at your relationship with receiving. Setting intentions without the ability to receive them when they come to fruition is unproductive. Let the good stuff come your way, knowing in full confidence you deserve it!
If you want to work more deeply with the energy of this Full Moon, I might suggest some journaling, spending time in the full moon outdoors this evening, or getting a private Tarot Reading to look deeper at what specifically you are calling in and clearing.
Read. Relate. Repeat.
My hope is through my words, through my own experiences, you will relate to some piece of my story. Some desire that I've shared or insecurity I've admitted to will also belong to you. My words are my truth, but they may also be yours.